Deeply Awake — “Enemy Mine” In Print By Kathy Vik 5-19-18

 

Deeply Awake: Enemy Mine By Kathy Vik 5-19-18

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What I am going to present to you is the culmination of a lifetime, actually, and I’m going to entitle it Enemy Mine. This is the bookend to the first essay I wrote as Deeply Awake, on March 23, 2012, 9 years after a very significant event, Judas Energy.

I have wondered sometimes why it is that I have such a blunt edge, with my reportage? Why do I couch things in metaphor? Why do I see things as paradox, and then express them as essays? Why?

Well, there’ are so many things I’ve called myself, over the years, but there are a few epithets that are true, and they’re just titles, really. I’m a poet. I’m a philosopher. I’m a writer. I’m a reporter. I’m a spiritual journalist, I guess, but I write in ways that are more like prose poems than discussion of facts and breaking down of probabilities. I did more of that after 2016, but I have a flavor that is poetic.

Ok. Alright. Well, it makes sense. The very very first Akashic thing I did was to get real quiet, and state to everything in my fields, every… all of it, all creation. I was going to do a novel, and I didn’t know how to write a novel. I wanted to create something, and I didn’t know how. But the need and the will was so strong, I sat down and said:

I know that you walk with me. I just do. And I need for those who are willing, and of the highest, the pinnacle of their skill, of their insight, those who really, truly not only understand, but can express in ways that make the heart flutter, and the mind reel, and the soul come into focus. Please step forward and join me. Please come and be with me, in my mind. In my heart. In my awareness. Express through me. I’ll know. I’ll know. And I’ll let you teach me.

I have done my energetic management. I understand it’s quite possible to be labeled in this new age environment as being tricked, or listening to trickery, and thinking it’s true. Well, I think that’s what we are all talking about, as channelers and writers. One of my missions was to talk about discernment, spiritual discernment. How do you become someone who has Spiritual Discernment? Kryon also talks about Spiritual Discernment.

And I haven’t met, or heard, anyone in this community who hasn’t able to describe that they just know when it’s pure. It just makes sense, and there’s some stuff that just doesn’t feel good. And that’s just a perfectly fine way of expressing it. But, if you are sensitive, and you can feel your energy, you can feel it bend, and twist, and you can feel Resistance, what you come to find is there’s not a whole lot of literature that even acknowledges that. Some of it does, and fairy tales do, of course. That’s why I love literature and art, because it simply acknowledges that there’s something going on here, that has to do with the human heart. That has to do with the finest qualities, that we know heal, and create rather than destroy.

And of course, whales are poets, they are philosophers, they are singers, they are Guardians, and I really resonate with those dudes, so I think it’s ok. But there comes a time when you just have to lay the facts out, Mine was a journey of discovery, of discernment, and of a reverse autobiography. You get hit with light, with a new way of being, a new way of understanding. Something happens, and you are bigger than you were. And then you’ve got to explain your self to your self, and you’ve got to explain reality to yourself, all over again.

It doesn’t just happen once. Once it starts, it doesn’t stop. It gets bigger. And it gets better.

But it gets bigger.

I’ve talked about this phenomenon as walking a mountain. There are some things I can say at the base of the mountain, and then when I get midway up the mountain and say those words, and they mean something completely different, and I get up to the top, and I say those words, in full awareness and memory, and I realize I was just babbling down there.

But as I walk down the mountain again, and get in midway and say it, that middle meaning makes sense again, and by the end of the mountain, I can inhabit all three. Sure. All three make sense. Which one do I prefer? Which one is the most clear? Which one serves me best? It’s the one at the top of the mountain, where I can say “so be it,” and create a reality, whereas, at the base of the mountain, if I say “so be it,” I may actually be swearing. See how that works?

It’s pretty bizarre, when you get to the real big stuff, and your whole being sort of pops, like a soap bubble and then you look around and go, “Oh! Wait a minute. I’m just in a bigger soap bubble now.” It’s kind of disorienting.

My function has been that of discovering and fostering peace and love. This is primarily because I didn’t see it very much in my reality, but I knew it was there. There’s something underlying all this nonsense, I just know it. And I have known such pure, pure avatars of love in my life, who healed me, because they loved me and accepted me, as I was. There is no finer medicine. And it’s where I have been unable or unwilling to reciprocate or generate it, where I feel I have fallen down, and need to address it somehow, I need to make it right.

Karma for one, please.

How do you break karma?

You love everything any way. You find a way.

And it doesn’t matter if it’s reciprocated. It doesn’t matter if it’s understood. It doesn’t matter if it’s resented. It doesn’t matter if it’s battered, and burned, and its ashes are buried.

That’s just the structure.

The reality remains. Indelibly. A ripple, through all time and all space. Anchor enough of that, on this Earth, in humility and in gratitude, and in strength, and in sovereignty, and see how this place changes.

That’s how it’s done.

There has been, as I have mentioned, an “Armageddon.” I’ve talked about it recently, but I was driving down the road, minding my own business, listening to the radio, and I popped through and WOW. The energy was so intense, so intense, and I returned and said boy oh boy, I’m glad I’m here. This is perfectly fine, I’ll take this. Man oh man, it was really super intense, the last couple of weeks.

And here I was, in daily life, on the steepest learning curve of my life. And then a thought group comes…

Kathy, I ask myself, remember when you went to see Enrique Bouron? And on the last day, you sort of had a thing with him. Do you remember?

I do, and so I’ll tell you about it, because it’s kind of cute.

The last day of a week of instruction in Biological Decoding from Mr. Bouron, I woke up in a very peculiar state. A very peculiar state indeed.

I had just been disassembled, in this truly and utterly bizarre and beautiful and soft and unbelievably healing week of transformation. I was just… I woke up, and I contacted every single person who I loved. Every single one of them. I didn’t even realize what I was doing until it was done. And then I looked at the clock and realised I didn’t have, really, any time, but I stink, so I have to get into the shower.

When I got in that shower, I was immediately in an ancient and quiet place, some sort of automatic place, my hands doing positions, my body being led, and me weeping, crying through the water turning my hair to ropes, beyond relieved that I remember how to do this. I said that at first, through tears of joy. I’m so happy I remember how to do this.

And then I began bringing up everyone. I went through every single person. Every single person. I brought every single person up, and I had a talk with them, because I knew I was completing something.

I was in reverence, and thanks, and release mode. And then I got to the last one, and I burst into flame in the shower. It was the most bizarre thing.

I don’t know how to explain it.

I knew before going in the shower that I was cutting it close and was going to be late, but I was told through the morning “Don’t worry about a thing, you’ll be there before he starts talking.”

So there’s me in the shower, and I’m so late, and then I’m flame, and then I’m dressing and rushing over there and there was no time. I got up there, finally, and he hadn’t taken the stage yet. I was considerably late, and he always started on time.

I took my seat. I felt I had been disrespectful to come in late, and I felt bad about that, but I didn’t fully understand what was going on.

I had the thought, sitting there, before he began, I can’t do any more slides. It’s too hard, it’s too intense, and I need for my grandfather to read me stories from the old country. I need for all of this to come together in some quantum biologic soup that I can understand and can take with me. I was almost crying, thinking, I’m so glad I have my grandfather to sit there and tell me stories from the old country. Please read from the book, please read from the book.

And he began his lecture, and the projector didn’t work. I was told, it was sort of a general announcement, just don’t worry about it, it’ll work just fine after this presentation, just tell stories. And that’s what he did.

And he began to tell stories, pulling everything together. I was gone within about five minutes. I have no conscious memory of what he said. I would pop back in and pop back out, but I was gone, and then he was there in front of me.

He had an Italian accent, and he didn’t look like he looks now, and he was so thrilled. I don’t know exactly where we went, or what we did, but at the end of it, he as the lecturer is still talking, and a part of me is absorbing and staying with the information in the ballroom, but I’m in my meditative space, he’s this ecstatic, jolly Italian man. He crackles back on in my awareness and says, “OK, it’s all done,” and he’s dancing and all happy, acting like the cat that ate the canary, so to speak.

I said, “What’s done? I wanna know how that’s gonna happen, because I understand from Biological Decoding that the whole deal is you gotta have this in your conscious awareness. It’s getting it  that heals you. How am I supposed to be healed, if I haven’t gotten  anything.

And he said, “Well, look!” and he was all excited and dancing, and his arm went p in a flourish to reveal a straight line that went on and on, all the way down, all the way down, forever, a path below and then there were these huge, huge boxes, they’re gift boxes, just dangling there, just dangling there.

He said, “Look, they’re all there. You just have to walk down the road and you’ll have your answers. You’ll have your a-ha’s. You’ll have your healings. It’s all done.” So I said, oh, ok, alright, and then I was in my body again, listening to the lecture.

I had so many bizarre, just truly and utterly other-worldly experiences during that time, it was magic. Truly, truly magic. It was so much fun! It was just amazing.

And, Dr. Todd was there. And now I finally understand what he was in resistance to. I understand why. There was something I hadn’t dealt with yet. There was something walking with me that I didn’t know about.

I spent a lifetime arguing, and throwing etheric punches, and getting punched. This thing that was beside me liked to take on forms and mess with me, play with me, and the whole idea was take away, and hobbling. It was all purposeful. It was to create this work, Deeply Awake. It was an agreement.

And here we are.

Once you can see the agreement, you can release it, right? Isn’t that the idea? That’s kind of the idea.

Enemy mine.

I didn’t talk about it a whole lot, not at all really, very very rarely. Everything in my environment told me it was taboo. It was not to even be acknowledged. It was taboo with my friends with the light, and it was taboo to win, at the dark.

Enemy mine.

It all started when I started to watch documentaries on megalithic structures, in between daily life stuff, and exercise, and all that stuff, recuperating. That research led me to Egypt. I am not a big fan of Egypt. It’s like a wart. I don’t like it. Never have.

But there is beauty there, there is beauty there. But the energy is warped and it’s ugly, and it’s mean, and it’s cold, and it’s not right. It’s just not right. Maybe you feel the same way. Maybe there are other places where you think about it and react with ,”Whoa, I would never, you couldn’t pay me go there,” and everybody else is flocking to it maybe. Ok. Acknowledge it. It’s real. There’s a reason.

There’s a reason. And it’s buried in your memory, which is in a state of disrepair, at one state or another.

I did the megalith thing, and I felt so hugged, and warm, and happy, and then I did the Egypt thing, and I felt all gross and violated, and then the speakers came. Then the truth was revealed. And an Armageddon happened up there. And maybe that was just for me, and that’s fine, but I know I’m a big one, so I think it’s important to talk about resolution.

I always thought about Armageddon as the battle, you know? The life and death struggle. And the apocalypse as the Big Reveal. Here’s the reason you guys were fighting. Here’s the outcome. Here’s the truth.

The revealing of the truth, the burning away of the veil. The big reveal. The Big Show.

It’s pretty stunning, for me, to have this knowledge, and to have it all come together. I am including an interview from Project Camelot of George Kavassilas, because his story is similar to mine in many respects. It was really good to hear who has survived the dropping away of everybody that mattered to them, and the reordering of your reality.

He is someone who has experienced that every time you have a big huge experience, you’ve got to somehow, somehow come back and try to fit in and function with people who are NOT having that experience, and who need, NEED, to shut you down, and shut you up about it, because THAT makes them uncomfortable. One way to handle that discomfort is ridicule, and there are other ways, to handle that, depending on how heavy-handed someone in discomfort decides to be.

And in all this research, I could come to no other conclusion: the enemy is mine, and I am the enemy.

I really had to struggle with this. When I was doing this research, I finally began listening to contactees.

I listened to Alex Collier, and then I listened to Simon Parkes, in a video entitled “33% Reptilian, 33% Insectoid and 33% Human.”

It blew my mind.

I am a blend.

My physical DNA has the genetic imprint of all of those races. That’s sort of the point. That’s what makes humans so incredibly beautiful, and brilliant, resilient, creative, strong, important. And indeed, royalty. It is an honor to hold this DNA. It is an honor.

Think about that, and then take a look out at Trumpland. Come right back. Do you notice a difference? How are you asked to think of yourself, in that closed system of government, medicine, justice, education? It’s a closed, finite system. It is an irrelevant system.

Closed systems die.

Listening to that man speak about his experiences, the choice that he made to see all of it benevolently, the story behind these races, and that’s something I couldn’t do before.

They had hurt me I had been hurt by them, here, and I didn’t know how to defend myself. They’d come visit, or something from them would happen, and I’d be sick. I called it magnetic, and it was an illness, and I’d be sick for a long time. I wasn’t visited by spaceships, I was visited by human beings holding that frequency, that intention, that signature. It smells horrible, and is the emotional equivalent and psychic equivalent of abject, raw terror.

They could induce me, and then feed off of it for weeks, sometimes longer. And they did that, until 2012.

It bothered me when I was visited again by them in 2012. I wasn’t visited by the entity in the flesh. I was visited by his mother, who had come for help. I don’t know if I was as compassionate as I could have been, but I was in misunderstanding of what was going on.

One question was whether she should advise him to go ahead and take the monoatomic gold he wants to eat. I was emphatic. NO. No. No. No. No. Especially for him, no, no, that would make him miserable No.

Soon after, I had a talk with my Self and with my God. I felt so threatened, in the middle of this, so threatened, yet again. Because there are lesser versions of this in all of my reality through all of my experiences. It has been everywhere, everywhere, everywhere.

That is what I have come to break.

That is what I have come to heal.

That is what I have come to love.

And release.

I call it the demiurge, that’s what I call it. And it has been individuated as has the Angelic forces. And so you can see it in the draconians, and you can see it in the Archons, and you can see it in the Thetans, and you can see it in Jinn. It’s the same energy.

And that energy runs through the justice system – let’s call it the legal system – and it burps into your wallet as green cash.

It invites you to believe that “You must earn everything, including a sense of self-worth, Including love. Including acceptance.

It must be earned.”

Well, that’s just a construct.

No, it doesn’t, you dork.

Well-being is my birthright. Joy is my birthright. Fun, play, excitement, creativity, expression, those are my birthrights. Look at what my body can do. I can create human life. And you dare tell me that I’m not free?

You’re dumb. And you’re small, and you’re petty. You’re not very bright, you know.”

Enemy mine.

I have that inside of me. I would see it, when I would watch a dark film, or when someone is doing something dark to another person on film, there would be this BOOM, this reverberation in my body, and sometimes I could feel it intensely. Sometimes it surprised me with its intensity.

And it’s funny, I think I have been able to notice these things because, for me, there hasn’t been a time speed-up. I’ve been really happy lately, because everything has slowed the fuck down.

I can understand things finally. Because there was always this buzzing, information zooming, but the last year or so, everything has slowed down so very much. And in the moment, I can see what’s going on, and respond in a way that’s in accord with what I really know to be true. Not in fear, but in humor. That took things slowing down, not speeding up.

I like it, because I can really think things through.

I took all this super, super personally. It was right in my face all the time. Maybe it’s being a woman, maybe it’s just being dialed the way I’m dialed, so maybe it would be helpful to just tell you my philosophy of life.

I’m gonna do what I’m gonna do, what I need to do, and there are certain things that you can argue about until you’re blue in the face, but I’m still going to do them. You can be upset about it, I don’t care. That’s fine Be upset. Enjoy that. But I still need to do this. And you having a problem with me completing my mission tells me more about you than me. So, I don’t care, have a problem with it.

That’s a pretty easy place to be. I don’t know how compassionate it is, but that’s sort of been my way, and it means that everybody else has the same freedom, and that’s really, really hard to give. But, that’s my philosophy.

You hang out with people, and you let them show you what they believe and who they think they are. Within that construct, there are certain things that they’re not going to be able to do, and certain things that they’re going to want to do, and it’s up to them. Not me. And if I want to join in that, I can. And a lot of it’s really fun. But, you know, everybody has the right to choose their own way.

In relationship, it means I watch. I just observe. I let people be. I wasn’t like that with my son, a whole lot, at first. It was the programming. I’ve stopped the clamp-down, but that’s how I am with everybody, just, whatever. And I guess it might appear uncaring, but there’s a reason for it.

I know of having soul urges, and experiences that can never be explained, because they would never be understood, so why bother? I know that everyone walks around in prisons, because they don’t talk about their experiences, and they don’t even have words for their emotions.

I was so shut down in 1985, when I started psych nursing, that I had to use an affect chart with faces to realize that there were a lot of expressions of emotionality.

I had just been pooped out of a pretty rigid structured system, and I had a certain amount of affective range, but I didn’t have words for any of it, and I hadn’t had mirrors, or I hadn’t been paying attention. So, the repetitive sort of inculcation began to break in nursing school, and once I got out of nursing school I realized I really needed to define – not define myself, that was way premature, but I just needed to figure myself out. I just needed to listen to myself.

I could finally sit down and listen, and I had some freedom, so that’s what I did. I started very multi-dimensional, parallel reality-friendly therapist, who resonated with Lazaris, and that was six years of putting myself together, and then I met The Teachers, who were an insert. I didn’t meet them on their spaceship, though they once took me there in session. I didn’t have contacts and visitations. I had to pay money.

But that’s consistent with my role.

It’s been to walk hand in hand with monsters, and what people thought were monsters, often times, as a psych nurse. I worked with people who went on to murder, and burn things down, and rape, and create mayhem.

I was always right smack dab in the mayhem, as a nurse. I liked the mayhem. I liked the seedy parts of town, and the parts that were thought to be rough, and run-down. I liked that the best. I was so uncomfortable visiting in expensive mansions, and being around that kind of folk. That’s just not me. “Everybody’s pretending here. Let’s get down to what’s real.”

It’s just one example of this weird blend I had going the whole time, and it was so hard to reconcile What is a being of love and light, who can totally hear god through a cloverleaf doing in a seedy bar? What the what?

Enemy mine.

Keep your friends close, and your enemies closer.

Love your enemy.

Enemy mine.

With every reveal, through these videotapes I’ve been watching, through my studies, through my research, research I wouldn’t be able to do any other way, so I am so grateful for YouTube. What a miracle. What a wonderful thing! This is the way to cement it. This information is available in our Merkahbic fields now, we can access all of this now, but it’s so satisfying to hear a stranger talk about something that sets things in motion, like a key finally turned in an engine.

A’Shayana Deane, I listened to her, and it took about five and a half hours to put Humpty Dumpty back together again, for the veil to completely burn off, and for me to see, finally see, just what I’ve been up against.

What strikes me the most is the manipulation of the solar system. And I looked at that, and I saw all the movements, and the processions, and the complexity, and the compulsivity, the compulsivity. And the arrogance.

Taking something that is obviously divine, and good for you, and saying, “I can do better. And, I don’t care who I hurt. In fact, it’s kind of fun. I like it.”

That is the mind of a tweaker, and a sociopath. That is what we are up against. Raw stupidity and arrogance.

Enemy mine.

It’s diabolical. And it’s super-mechanical. And it’s dead.

These tweakers don’t know how to design open systems because they don’t have the DNA to consider it possible. They’re not smart enough, simply put. But, oh my god, they’re tweakers!

And I have seen that in my life, and in my work, and I’ve described. There’s even an essay that talks about it, “Obsessive-Compulsive.” I resonate with Antares, and one of the fundamentals of this energy is to learn balance, and abstain from obsession. It’s been on my radar for a while, and once again, another stream comes in to confirm that which is coming into clearer and clearer focus.

This is one of my theses, that there is a mindset that creates a field of experience that’s closed, that’s karmic, and the energy is tarry and sticky and infective.

I’ve been describing it.

I’ve been living it.

I’ve been writing and speaking, and thinking the words, but it’s only today that I feel power, and peace, and safety.

There’s a lot about the plan, and what’s occurring that I am in agreement and in accord with, and it’s counter what we have been led to believe or that we understand, but it is coherent and consistent with everything else I have learned in my lifetime of research. I really had to struggle with that, especially overnight, I asked for some help.

The truth is, had I had this information any sooner, I would have left. I would have exited. I wouldn’t have been able to maintain enthusiasm. I barely did, with a complete cloak around my head, I barely survived. Had I known what I know now, that would have been that.

So, what The Teachers told me, way back when, is really true. I wanted to know where I was from, in order to understand what it was all about, and they said they wouldn’t reveal, and that’s my policy, too, with my clients. That’s the most profound discussion you’ll ever have with your soul, and it’s not for me to tell you. You’ve got to ask a few questions. And you might be put on a scavenger hunt or two. It may be a weird experience, or it might be handed to you on a note, who knows, but I’m not the one to hand you that note.

They told me, if I knew, I wouldn’t stay. And now I understand why.

That was the God’s honest truth, it turns out. And to hold this awareness has led to such profound peace. It’s indelible.

All that’s I’ve been saying, that there’s nothing to worry about, and that everybody loves you, and everything’s cool, all the messages from the rapture of spiritual awakening and all that? That’s singing from my bones, and my blood, and my nervous system today.

So, where is this enemy of mine?

Still here.

Still here. Within me.

It took A’Shayana saying a joke, to break the fear, for me. The way that she talks about the dracs, and the reptilians, and all that stuff, all the greys, she’s had her tussles, ok? She’s been hurt, just like we all have. But you know how she responds? “Yeah, well, it takes a village.”

You gotta get to the place where you love. And the only thing that energy requires of you is hate. Hate and fear. It’s the only thing that makes sense, when you’re looking right at it. Hate and fear.

That’s all it knows.

Well, that and tweaking. Unbelievable.

So, I’m sitting on my bed this morning and thinking, no wonder I’ve had problems with this reflectivity, I am that which I hate. I contain that which I abhor. I am genetically, biologically part of my enemy.

But, you know what?

Somehow, somehow, I can see bigger, than my enemy. I can do things my enemy can’t. I can love them. And, they don’t seem capable of it, but, I don’t care. I love them.

Enemy mine.

That’s what shadow work is, you know. You get beat up by the shadow, or you beat up somebody else, and you feel the shadow overtake you, if you do your shadow work right, it blossoms into radiant, brilliant diamond light, and love. That’s the idea. Always. That’s the purpose.

So the question becomes, how much conflict do you need to get to that love? Do you really need conflict, to feel forgiveness and release? How important is it to you, how necessary a device?

Yeah, make-up sex is kind of fun, but I’ve never had it. I think it’s kind of dumb. It’s disordered thinking. Coming together after misunderstandings, that’s different, but I’ve witnessed couples, myself included, get into cycles where their anger and pain become their passion, because they’ve lost their love. And then they don’t understand why they’re in this cyclone of despair all the time, but it like, “well, you’re addicted to something that’s not very healthy.”  I think that’s what a lot of us do. We get hooked on the conflict because we’re still trying to figure out what love is. Because we are trying to get it, get it, from someone else. And it’s just disordered thinking, that’s all. It’s ok, it’s really ok.

When the lights come on, then you have to make a decision. You can get your juice from anger and slight, and pain and disappointment, or you can lift anchor. And, you find, the wind takes you, and the sea supports you, and you’re no longer alone.

It’s very odd.

So, I’m a poet, and a philosopher, and not necessarily one of those who had experiences in crafts and in other physicalized realities. My way seems to blended earth life and cosmic life, and got my understandings in perhaps unconventional ways, more shamanic or visionary, or lalalalala.

But I did it all in amnesia, and finally, the big reveal came. Boop. We’re up against tweakers? Oh Fuck. They’re impaired. They’re impaired, they’re dangerous but they’re not healthy individuals, and it’s not a healthy consciousness. It’s going to do unhealthy things.

OK.

Well, it isn’t a conundrum. It isn’t a puzzle, it isn’t a problem. It’s the task at hand. Figuring out exactly what, who, or if, there is an enemy.

It really took realizing that by virtue of being human, I am, I have internalized, through my genetic code, this whole set up. And because this darkness has individuated and tapped me on the shoulder and messed with me, it became a priority, for me, to figure out exactly what it was.

So, to end, I’ll tell you of my big Aha!, because it’s been really hard for me to know, am I good, or am I bad? I freaking resonate with the dark. I understand the dark. I don’t mind it. I’m kind of immune. It doesn’t seem to stain me, but instead invigorates me, and it makes me appear dark, and corrupted, to some.

Enemy mine.

I am that which I fear.

I am my own destroyer.

I am paradox.

I am a singularity.

And I am the creative essence.

I know, and am, with, that thing, that if you’ve been touched by it, if you’ve run after it and touched it, you know what I’m talking about. The Isness. The All. God. Creator. Source. The Unified Field. Call it what you will. It doesn’t mind.

I resonate with the dark, because I created the dark, because I like a good story. And because, with free will the way it is, well there was a part of me that wanted to run free, and defy. And say:

You. Can’t. Make. Me.

Interesting.

Will is a quantum force. Love is a quantum force.

My enemy likes to play with will, and ignore the solvent that is love.

And I am my enemy.

And I am at peace, with what was, what is, and what is to come.

I love my enemy.

I love my Self.

And I love you.

I declare this the day when all misunderstandings fall, all misdeeds are seen as our own, seen for the silliness they are, and dismissed, with a chortle.

I know my enemy, and I know why I can go dark. I know why it’s bothered me when I have gone dark.

But there is no enemy. It’s just a game. And the light always wins. Always. Without exception. That’s the only rule. This has been a wonderful, wonderful game. Big to little, little to big.

Love your enemy.

Enemy mine.

SEYLAH.

 

 

Deeply Awake — Enemy Mine By Kathy Vik 5-19-18

 

I feel as shaky and apprehensive and awed in publishing this work as I have on a few other occasions, during my creative sojourn. I felt this way with Judas Energy (link below), with Home, and a few others. After posting, sometimes, I look back, look in, and wonder how it is I didn’t break the internet somehow, with my posting, because I just broke reality. That’s how I feel about what I offer you today. It is a culmination of a lifetime of work, to understand and come to peace with my enemy. It is my finest work yet. Here is its bookend, its counterpart, called Judas Energy:

https://kathyvik.com/2017/12/30/deeply-awake-judas-energy-3-23-12/

As I say on video, I have been quiet about the root cause of the darker aspects of my character, and have allowed myself safe exploration into many physical realities with which few are comfortable. I find I am finally at ease, in those environments, often times. I’ve never minded “the dark,” in other words. I just didn’t know why it was incessantly buzzing me.

I address “the plan,” the “service to self” groups, and this battle we seem to be having internally, and in our dealings, that seems fulminant within our leaders, and in our greater realities. This work is my interpretation of why I am here, and my response to finally understanding the answers I have received to the eternal questions.

I hope you enjoy and feel release from this offering of mine. It stands as my description of a journey, through space, time, meaning and significance, to learn answers to questions few around me felt were ok to ask, and fewer still who took seriously what I was coming to know. Such is the way of it for some of us. But, that’s ok. Our time has finally come.

 

 

 

I am including a wonderful interview with George Kavassilas and Project Camelot. He is yet another gifted and seemingly destined teacher of this knowledge. We each take our place in good time, in divine accord, it seems. He has been tested, and he has come through, and has enlightening things to say about it all. I hope you enjoy it as much as I did.

 

 

 

 

I hope you enjoyed this work of mine. Here is its postscript. I like chuckling. Laughing, and this sketch, are favorites, especially her voice. Ahh! Some Humor is just Co(s)mic Perfection!.

 

Deeply Awake CHANNEL: “The Physics of Consciousness” 3-23-16 — The Council/Kathy Vik

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We appreciate it is now time to explain more fully about a number of topics, as indeed a tone has been struck among you, with Gaia, and so, yes, what was heralded in a missive the channel normally would not have accessed is confirmed. In it, highly coded, and rather specific for a, we say a certain amplitude along the wave that you are.

We tell you now that what was foretold has come to pass, in that a manifestation of consciousness has reached a perceptible pitch, and can be appreciated with Hertz scale, although it is, perhaps, the magnetics of your planet that are the most spectacular at this time. We ally magnetics to sound, and wish for you to understand that all is vibration, and, if looked at, appreciated thusly, with a willingness to perhaps allow your body to resonate with the concept, or the appeal you hold for a thought, allow this to grow.

We are speaking now of amplitude and frequency, and yet, these are mechanical tools for a quantum job. Let us explain.

We have given the channel many visuals this day, the first being the visual understanding of the holographic nature of the DNA. Understanding that at a subatomic level, yes, as there are groupings, at this level, there is a signature, a vibration, within which holds all information of that self, in all forms, and more, oh so much more. It is this that is then replicated within the DNA to express as you are. Cell scraping from you cheek renders the hologram, and your devices, yes the measure the stones and mortar, but they cannot describe the path, the journey, the significance or the divinity.

We tell you this to illustrate the workings of your body of which you are unaware, and we caution you to please remember that all aspects of this creation have a magnetic signature as well. And you do understand, do you not, that sound is sound because a wave is being interpreted by an amplification device, one which then converts mechanical energy for electrical stimulus.

Within this amazing soup you ride, not knowing of the brilliance of your creation, of your sheer capacity for enjoying what you have created.

We bring it to your attention because we ask you to consider what might happen, theoretically, if the very space in which the originating electrons manifest into your reality, what if that space has changed, or if the posture of the entry has nudged a bit? What happens, we ask you to consider, if the medium in which the electron is manifesting has altered?

And what has altered it?

We have said that the space in which the electron rides is that of consciousness, of source. And this is true. But do you not understand, when the electron is manifesting as YOU, and you are a creature who is entrained within magnetics and other vibrational realities of which you are unaware, these have layers, dear ones, and they have altered because of intent. Because of you.

We tell you that nothing here is anything but cooperative and benevolent, and we understand that this is very hard to believe in any literal way, at times, given circumstances self and other created, for the higher good, of course.

We tell you that what is done is done, and consider it good, we pray. Consider it finished, however.

There has been a birthing process within each, and we caution you to consider what was occurring for you at the equinox. The evening may have passed gently. We are aware many did not, instead, using the event for lesson.

There was a magnetic reset that was felt among many, with anything from an unusual fogginess of thought to physical incapacity. Has it not been part of the fear culture, the conspiracy side as well, to consider that a magnetic pole shift would be calamitous, and would render humans incapacitated? And have we not repeatedly said that magnetics were at the root of no less than two of the civilization completions, as, with a vast and swift change in magnetics, the human is “wiped,” this is the word we use for this procedure.

And so, we ask you to consider that things are not always what they seem, and that things, the grid, the planet, you, have changed.

And we tell you nothing happens except through agreement, and that each must and will experience this as they will, and there is a grin, as it is realized yet again that everyone is a sovereign expression of source, here by agreement, out of love, devotion, honor, the flavors of love which have been discussed this day.

As the resonance is felt, we tell you there will be certain emotional states which you will not think to enter, and those which are uncomfortable to enter. We gave the channel this experience and wish to explain, as this was a fine example of cooperative work.

The channel is an emotive one, and has found resonance in a place now which does not welcome certain thought groups. She found herself feeling and thinking as she once had, and found that the thinking was of course circular, sticky, impossible to resolve. There had been discussion earlier about consciousness as vibrational frequency, and these frequencies are indeed impregnated with thought groups, belief structures, and they are quite palpable to the sensitive. We have called these agreement fields in the past, and we say that when there is enough amplitude, a simple reality can indeed become shared. That is what we are, in fact, explaining.

We wish to encourage all as their senses heighten. The channel can understand us innately now, and there is meld . The tone it strikes is a tone many have also found, and many are finding, in these hours and days. We have said it is effortless and we tell you this is true. You have known that the best things are natural, easy, simply perfectly perfect, and this is one of those events. There are some who can feel this as it occurs for the collective, and most who are sensitive will discover, as we have said, a host of new thoughts more readily available to them than previously. This is the new amplitude.

We talk about resistance as an energetic force, and the channel wrings her hands and discusses what if feels like to be experiencing it, and how it is cured through thought. We say it is cooperative, because of course all thought forms have a signature, from where they emanate, their intent, their taste, their color. Everything you emit is filled with holographic information, dear ones. You do not just shed skin cells and hair. You shed your hologram everywhere you go.

Consider that the palette you were painting from last evening is filled, very abundantly, with acrylic paint. Sturdy, colorful, pliable, easy to work with, the masters of which make as much nuanced art as any artist, in any medium.

And, this morning, the pallet, yes, there is your beloved thumb groove, the pockmarked third paint well, the little cracks along the edge, and yet, the aroma from the paints is old, familiar, revered. The colors are spectacular, and the box from which they came is filled, absolutely filed, with oil paints.

Rather than think about which medium is better, and why this tragedy with your beloved acrylics had to occur to such a devoted and talented painter, instead, you pick up the palette, approach your newly stretchered canvas, and begin, confident, grateful and excited, deeply gratified, honored, thrilled.

A portrait is a masterpiece if there is use of contrast. What is art but masterful use of contrast? And your lives are your living, breathing sculptures, your chef d’oevres, your Mona Lisa’s.

There have been gradations on this adjustment, and it is wise to remind all the metaphor of the child. One does not become wholly independent overnight. There have been upgrades, downloads, many ways it is seen, and yet we see it as resonance, as a gradual turning of a dial, and the result is a fine-tuning, a clarity of thought which are but symbols for that which has occurred organically.

With these teachings we are asked to recall the desire in many millions of hearts, beating in unison this day, for the world to come to its senses and feel brotherhood. To stop fighting. To be accepted as you are. To find no fault in another. EW know of your desire, for the earth to breath easy, if only for a moment, and this encoded desire, the seed, the root, which leads many to world peace meditations, and to quiet moments of peace within self, this is occurring. Not in a flash, for all, but for some, the changes are remarkable, exceptional. But we warn of no cataclysm, no horror. Shocks to the consciousness, some require, and stories have their momentum. There are mass consciousness creations which can be affected, now more than before, but with the still small voice of one who knows that the conflict does not really exist. Be the one in the room, if you are only one in the room, who holds this knowledge, and acts accordingly.

We leave you in great comfort and peace this day.

Seylah

 

Deeply Awake with CHANNEL: Ancient Origins Of Peace Passing All Understanding By Kathy Vik 5-7-18

 

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My finest work so far. This is a synthesis of an epic modern-day shamanic journey. In this work, I spend 37:55 minutes explaining what my most recent research into ancient civilizations has revealed.

To summarize, I explain about the Pleadian seeding, Lemurians. the grid of nulls and nodes, on which are the  ancient sites, something intentional and an expression of the energy it represents. I explain about the Martian colonization, the failed external merkahbah that led to a change in the experiment, and the outcome of all of this.

I am able to explain the different consciousness sets involved in what we see playing out in the world, and within ourselves, during this time of shift and change.

What stands is a comprehensive, understandable and absolutely unbelievable perspective, one which I have heard in bits and pieces throughout my life. So, it is a culmination of a lifetime of dedication to understanding what the heck this life was all about, and why it was so weird sometimes.

The channel surprised me in its easily accessible esoterics and high physics, as well as the delivery, which is, of course, humorous, calming, surprising and somehow leads to a feeling of being complete, for now.

I am so gratified to be offering this to you results of my research, which are at once jarring and calming. I have no doubt that if you decide to take this ride, you will at the least have a few more things to research than you did before you made this commitment.

For those who are ready for a LEAP.

 

 

 

For those who are ready to take the next step in learning about our ancient origins, and our innate magnificence, wisdom and truth, Dr. Semir Osmanagic talks ancient sites.

 

Deeply Awake: What Happens When Resistance Becomes Self-Aware? By Kathy Vik 5-5-18

 

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A compelling, intense, deep and comprehensive report on further integration in the ascension process, discussing the link up of cosmic and Gaian realities.

Issues of identity as they relate to the ascension process are discussed with gentleness and a unique point of view. A coherent discussion of ancient history, DNA activation, energetic management, shamanism and “mundane” daily life.

Anomalies abound. There is very little on this tape that is synched up, most of it is on a time delay, and the delays and synch are as meaningful as the words. I am beginning to think it is a form of communication, and I think it is beautiful and clever of “them.” At 43:14, my much-beloved wisp appears!

 

Deeply Awake: Visions I Want To Share With You By Kathy Vik 1-12-18

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I was so touched by this video, I’m sitting here feeling so good, so warm and complete, and I hope that as you watch, you have the same experience.

I had a mediation that I felt needed to be shared, and I intertwine this with what I bring up first, the upcoming eclipse, on January 31, 2018. For those interested in my impressions, its meanings, this is a good video for that, in real time, and later, I think it helps explain how I use intention with celestial events, “triggers.”

Very moving and really fun to watch, I found, because the descriptions are cogent and highly visual, which helps me to make things come alive, on rehearing.

I hope your sparkles lead you home, safe and sound, and I hope this helps in that endeavor. Namaste.

 

Authors notes: 1 – I was wearing a onesie because the house is cold. 2 – I meant from April of 2016, not August, as I was describing one of my first activations. I actually heard the word “April,” and was sure convinced that is what I said. Very odd indeed.  3 – That hand on fire thing has happened to my body repeatedly in this process. The flames are wonderfully soft, and have changed in color and brilliance through the years. I bring it up in order to open a discussion, because I know I am not the only one seeing themselves in spiritual flames during some meditations. OK, it’s out there. Now, please enjoy 🙂

 

 

 

This video’s soundtrack:

Deeply Awake — Final Words 12-20-12 By Kathy Vik

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Deeply Awake — Final Words 12-20-12 By Kathy Vik

Author’s Note: These works are not edited yet, and so you will notice the voice shifting from “I’ to “you” rather freely, and I mention it to help you feel ok with it. Consider how it is when you are talking with yourself. Perhaps there is someone in there with you who’d like to get a word in edge-wise? That how this channeling business was at first. Still, It is a strong piece, and I hope you enjoy it.

I am writing this as a letter to myself. I have meditatively gathered up many of my fragments, called many parts of myself home, and feel oddly consolidated.

I have been puzzling on the meaning of the solstice now since the 12-12-12, and although I may not be that much closer to knowing what will happen, I want to record my letter, a letter I intend to wake up and read tomorrow morning.

As I prepare to do this, I am aware that it will be a bigger/different portion of myself doing the typing. I’m ok with that, hope you are too.

December 21, 2012,

Dearest Friend Kathy,

Another cold December morning.

But it is unlike any other December morning in the history of man.

And do you know why that is?

Well, partly because that’s what everyone believes is true, and partly because there is an energetic signature to this day that is unique.

Understand that the dissonance you feel, that going-in-going out sensation you get when you consider the poles, this is normal. Part of you is thinking, gee, this is an energetic fact, this is a special day. Part of you is thinking, this day is special only because so many entities in my world have given it meaning.

But no, we hope you can now see the beauty, and the irony, to all of this.

Not everyone has been steeped in this teaching. Do you really believe that everyone has done what you have done, abandoning your position of wealth and standing, studying incessantly, using everything in your reality as fodder, as grist, as another way to wake up.

Dear one, we are in awe. We are in awe. We extend an invitation to you to stand in front of this living tableau you have fashioned. Just get a taste of it. An eye full of it.

In a year’s time, you have become, quite literally, a different person. You do not eat the same foods as you once did, you don’t do most of the things the way you once did, and the few areas where these patterns persist, oh, you go hard on yourself.

Do you see how you have created this whole thing?

Your reality is mirroring back to you that today, The Winter Solstice 2012, is a special day. Mainly because the energy you have gathered into your life over this year is reflecting to you this new Earth, risen from the still, compassionate words of long gone Teachers.

The Teachers told me all I needed to know.

They told me all about the process.

It is flooding my awareness, and today, on the solstice, they ask me to keep them in my heart, on my tongue, in my mind. Keep them present.

Why were we crestfallen, 20 years ago, after the 12-12?

We were crest-fallen because THERE HADN’T BEEN ENOUGH OF US. Do you remember that? That was the whole reason for it not working. There hadn’t been enough souls to do the work in the physical.

And now there are.

Today, all over the globe, people just like me are going to be saying prayers, setting intentions, and many will be doing such advanced stuff, it makes my head spin. Everyone will have their booth open today, and the only currency is love.

Now, The Teachers never steered me wrong. Not once. And their teaching about critical mass came to me, and needs to be included in this letter.

Remember yesterday, how bogged down you started to get, thinking that all of this was just made up, a control game of the Illuminati to screw with people’s hearts and minds. Remember how weirded out you got about that?

Here’s what got you out of your funk. And this will guide you through the day today:

It is just quite possible that the first wave will be activated tomorrow.

Now, in Teacher-Talk, what that means is that there will be enough participation, enough human energy flowing, tomorrow, for enough of us to get high enough to actually physically ascend.

The first wave.

Now, I know that this is a concept which is at the heart of a lot of matters, but I am falling back on what The Teachers said to me all those years ago. They said that ascension is very common, the evolutionary mechanism. But what is being attempted on Earth is so singular, so unique, that no one really knows how it is going to play out.

The way it usually works, and the way The Teachers taught us, is that there is a first wave in any ascension process. The first wave is made up of people who are mavericks, who buck the system and know they are not from it. They ascend. They return and mingle. The work becomes all about getting more and more people to wake up, astounding more and more people with all these so-called miracles, just spreading the love, spreading the joy.

Then the second wave ascends. And waves one and two work on the more reluctant among us.

So, I have done a lot of blog reading, a lot of thinking, some writing, some praying, and a whole year of days spent going, moment by moment, feeling by feeling, from this site to that site, this author to that speaker, picking my way through a delightful garden of forbidden fruits from the ancient lineages.

And here I am, on December 21.

So, yes, I do think, my lovely friend, that this could be a very good day for you. Certainly, there has never been a day more taut with others’ expectations. That counts for something.

And that random thought,that, well, at least now I’m not alone, those seven words sort of sum it all up. There are a whole lot of real live people praying with all their hearts for world peace, self-realization, and a love which surpasses all other experience.  On this very day. And that counts for something.

When will there ever be a day more ripe to ride the swells of goodwill?

Combine that with all the calendar completions. Even if you begin to believe that all of it is quite sloppy and imprecise, could be off by decades, even so, there are just too many coincidences, with all the different calendars coming to a close.

And don’t forget what David Wilcock said, all those months ago, that everyone who tried to go past Decenber 21 of 2012, they hit an energetic wall, an impenetrable wall of light in that ET chair the government had.

From the solstice forward, no one could go forward, in the Looking Glass experiments. Don’t forget that.

But I had my wall of light in May.

And that leads me to the end of this letter.

You have been waiting, in suspended animation almost, for a year, but in many ways, every day of your freaking life. You have waited in the wings, fully aware of your power, but tamping it down, allowing others to tamp, tamp, tamp. You have been biding your time, cooling your heels.

At the end of this day, whether you ascend or not, there will still be you. And there will, more than likely, although I really can’t conceive of why, there will probably still be this apartment, this computer, these clothes, these circumstances.

And what of it?

If my “limited” 3d view doesn’t alter significantly, that will be a little disappointing, but not a big deal, given how great things are getting overall. And if I still experience no sustained nirvana, and wind up here in the midst of all the dumb things I have been creating with such conviction, then I still will have something I didn’t have before the solstice.

See, the solstice today is a big day for a lot of people, and numerologically and maybe even astronomically, it’s a big day, an auspicious day. But, within it, it holds an even greater day. The Day After.

Remember, on the day after, no matter what happens, you will have lived through this great shift.

Whether man-made, cosmically-made, or a combination, it’s a big deal. A big deal. And then it will be over. All the waiting I feel I have done, gee, my whole life feels like one long wait, see, I think that sense of anticipation will be lifted. And I think that is a marvelous gift!

I have way too many people I consider authorities all telling me, quite independent of each other, that this shift is real, it is happening now, and the end result is much more of the beauty and synchronicity my life has started becoming.

I know that on the Monday after the solstice, I can and will be taking a different approach to a few things.

And I know I have been writing about this stuff what seems like forever, but there it is again. This sense of suspension of action, animation. Just being suspended in a jar full of some jelly that makes me think like an Indian Monk. That’s where I have been.

And I feel like on Monday, the lid is coming off.

I have put myself away for this last year, and as I have reiterated, in many ways, my whole life has been spent on the shelf. I did it all, had lots of experiences, but the real good stuff, the raw, beautiful powerful stuff, that’s only been in the company of The Teachers, with my old gurus, with my new friends.

Isn’t it ironic, for someone who has had extremes in experience, that I feel somehow cocooned from it all, in some odd way. Maybe what I am tapping into is having lived the last 52 years as a caterpillar. And on Monday, I have a weird feeling that, big soul on fire event or not, I will be a butterfly.

So, today, The Winter Solstice, 12-21-12, is a big day.

You have Sam today. And you guys will have fun. It’s your day. Just stay conscious. Just stay aware. Just laugh and be alive. What else can be done?

And all the details and inconveniences and doubts and fears, the hopes and plans and visions and lists, let each and every one of them, let them all just tinkle to the ground like pick up sticks, and let each of those inconveniences, each of those fears and worries, let each of them shatter, and in the force of their breaking, let the pure white light of love, acceptance, forgiveness, permission, escape.

Let the love which begat and sustained these constructs now expand and fill the room, fill my lungs, fill the sky and the earth with such tender love for myself. Each foible, each trauma, each joy, each kindness, let each and every facet of the me I became spin and twirl, a diamond, lit from within with the thousand suns of complete surrender to one’s own rightness.

Let thoughts of gridwork, spaceships, political justice, romantic completion, home decoration, personal finances, life mission, getting it right, doing it in time, let all of that fade.

None of it matters.

We can put everything in balance. Everything will once again be made whole.

Just rest through this day, breathe, enjoy the simplest of pleasures, laugh, my sweet, laugh, rest, drink and eat. Experience pleasure and comfort. Go deep and stay long.

Monday will come.

But the yammer yammer, no, I don’t think it’ll be there.

If there is a yammer yammer, I think I know how to still it.

By Monday, I will have lived through the solstice weekend. For better or worse, it’ll be done. It is not a surprise that my work life is at a standstill. Everything is at a standstill. Even my car won’t start.

When I find myself forced to be still, there is always a very good reason.

Monday will come, and I will move again, now a butterfly, released from a stuffy old jar.

For some reason, what Bashar says about the solstice doesn’t upset me. He said that it is an energetic marker, a vortex or a portal. And before that day, the balance is slightly more negative than positive. After that day, the balance is slightly more positive than negative.

The world will go on. We will keep on creating, as Dee Wallace says.

I carry within my heart of hearts a secret wish to ascend. To blink off, go away, get trained, and return. That is my secret hope, for this most auspicious of days.

If that happens, that will be very nice. If it doesn’t happen, then that’s ok too. I’m not married to this date. It’s everybody around me who’s going nuts about it. I’m just along for the ride, hoping there will be enough push to get this thing off the ground this time.

Kathy, I do want you to read this tomorrow morning, because I do worry about you. I know that you sense this date as some sort of cliff. And you also see it as a somewhat synthetic event. But, let’s not forget, Christmas is a purely synthetic event. It morphs each year, each generation. It is an entity. As is the solstice. As is ascension, for that matter.

The synthetic nature of the date is there as a safeguard, because it is unlikely that your boots will get knocked off, and you can use this device if it helps you in explaining things to yourself.

The worry is that deep down soul ache that you can still call up in a moment, that one that makes you feel just awful, disconnected from Source, all alone here on Earth.

Don’t let a date allow such sloppy thinking.

If ascension doesn’t happen tomorrow, then it will happen some other time. The eternal believer, it will neither sway my belief, my enthusiasm nor my joy.

Nope, I will not allow the anticipation of an outcome, any outcome, to lord itself over me today.

Here I am, right where I wanted to be at letters end, wishing you a happy solstice, completely and blissfully removed from any desire from any outcome at all. In a state of no meaning, all meaning. In a state of bliss.

I say to all my sisters and brothers around the world, celebrating in your own unique way today, HELLO! How are you? Happy to meet you! What is a zap of electricity, a blinding white light, what are special powers, when I have all this love and so many people to give it away to?

Who really needs wheels-within-wheels, when I can meditate, or even just look out a window, and see these, my brothers and sisters, popping up all over the world, feeling healthy and true and right, awake and ready.

Monday will come. Monarch, fluttering, maybe a little hesitant at first, appreciating the newfound sense of freedom and lightness, I will accomplish whatever tasks are at hand, wherever I find myself.

It doesn’t matter where I find myself on Monday. Today, the solstice, I am at home, with my kid, laughing, thinking good thoughts, and hoping everyone comes to love and respect and accept themselves as I am beginning to.

Namaste,

Kathy Vik

Deeply Awake: Looking Back and Looking Forward to 2018 By Kathy Vik 2-28-17

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I enjoy learning astrology from Steve Judd. This video is very helpful, as are the videos on the neutral and negative sides of Pluto. In this video, he speaks so eloquently of the transformative experience, that I ask you to watch it before watching my offering. Whether or not you are “into” astrology, listening to this man’s succinct and poetic explanation of something we ALL have in our natal charts can help, if you are experiencing deep issues, that dreaded “shadow work,”  which leads each of us to transformation.

 

 

 

I’m pretty stunned at this offering, because I am easy with the information, it flows well, and it is an honest summation not only of the transformation I went through in 2017, but fleshes out what I understand about “The EVENT,” how I do energy work and what comes of this work, as well as a deeply personal, optimistic and beautiful presentation of how ascension is playing out, day to day.

This is a much different Kathy Vik doing the talking. The last few days have brought phenomenal peace, and I am rocking into something powerful, playful, exacting, tender, and safe. It’s been waiting for me, and it’s perfect… It’s like a joke we’ve played on ourselves… when the smoke clears, it turns out, all of it was purposeful, and most of it irrelevant, now. Only love endures, and wonder that we are in the times we are in. I hope you enjoy this. Its candor, pace, coherence, and intensity has soothed me because the whole thing is very gentle while perfectly focused. Enjoy.

 

 

 

 

 

 

For those interested in my natal charts information:

My pre-natal eclipse was 8 days before I was born. I used the following data points: February 15, 1961, at 02:19 in Minneapolis. This is the geometry:

And here is my birth natal chart:

 

And here is my natal chart from my vision “The son/sun of Antares Is Born,” April 26, 2012, at 03:45 in Wheat Ridge, Colorado. Note: this program doesn’t highlight an aspect that allows visualization of the six pointed star, but that’s OK, it’s in there.

 

Deeply Awake: Post-Solstice Peace

 

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Because the energy is so vastly different, or at least my experience of it is vastly different than in days past, I wanted to come and offer a smaller talk about how the peace I felt in meditation in July has indeed come to pass in my storyline.

I explain why it was as big a relief as it turned out to be, and a bit more about why I am feeling an inner happiness and authority and peace I’ve never known, due primarily to my studies into astrology.

I give a taste of what I most recently discovered about my birth natal chart, a stunner of a discovery, that I have been looking at a whole lifetime, and just never saw until recently. It’s a great tale, and I hope you enjoy it.

Later today I will be doing a video going into my charts a bit more, but I will include the chart which helped me see why this lifetime was as rich, and difficult, and fated, as it all was.

 

Here’s a hint of what’s to come, astrology wise: