​Deeply Awake On The Fly 9-15-17 (aka My First Prose Poem)

Author’s note:

Now that all that pesky editing is done, and it reads the way I wanted it to, I’ll let you in on a secret. It’s best read cranking this song. Just sayin’



My son just laid it out, that I’m way too negative. I became much more aware of my conversational content, what I was bringing up, and why. It was a good exercise. I’m continuing the practice. I like it.






I mentioned that I’d noticed an edge since I’d started watching  msnbc news (Rachel Maddow is a requirement, Lawrence O’Donnell adds so much, rarely anyone else, fyi) daily, in addition to my usual more random info gathering techniques.






I mentioned that sometimes, in response to some of what I see, and understand, I feel a all encompassing rage that is very specific to impotence. It’s white hot, and it’s hard not to feel it toward some of what I see these days.







That’s kind of why I educate myself. Learning as much as I can, soothes my rage. And my fear.  Then I told him that I think that once you know something, you’re responsible for it.






I’m making myself responsible for a lot, because I’m dipping into the minutiae of current events, especially when something doesn’t hit me quite right.







I go far with some of it, a unique quality, I thought, until I learned about the spectrum. It’s normal here, to just exhaust knowledge bases, something I am very fond at, and at which I excel.








That’s kind of the idea.







But right now there’s a lot of top to bottom, left to right, black and white, high level weirdness going on. I’m very curious, and I  enjoy it like others enjoy football, I’ve explained to my dad. This is the last (few)  season(s) of the biggest clash ever, in a way.







But, it’s like football, to me. And, come on,  there’s a lot to keep track of.





And in this case, I have neither the interest required nor the willingness to fight, to directly, effect things. I’m not going to run for office, or even protest, (though I have done a few), but I won’t go where there might be violence, whether it be physical or verbal.













I’m sensitive to it, and it’s quite painful at this point. So, I just won’t. So, out of the fray, what can I do?












I can speak out,  write about it, spread balanced, interesting points of view, while never wavering from the truth: what our government has become, the values our society truly embodies, have nothing to do with many of us, much more than any of us think.

















Something new was coming, and now it is HERE.













And the lines are far more clearly drawn, are they not? Aren’t things getting more and more obvious, that we have got a serious, red alert kind of problem in our highest governments, in the “programmed” media, much of it, in banking, all over the place, but look at that guy at “the top.” We are in deep shit, you guys. This is the real deal, we are witnessing.











And people are beginning to get it.













And yet this shadow is sort of lurking around a lot of folk. There’s a whole lot of acting out going on at the moment.

















We’re realizing something big, as a mass consciousness. Some knew it all along, but it’s becoming more and more exposed.














And, through the miracle that is YouTube, we’re seeing this play out,  night by night, on our phones, in our homes, those looking in.











At this point, it’s shocking to me when a person isn’t aware of what’s going on, and has no interest. I understand it, though, and kind of envy it, in a way. I feel, with my proclivities and interests, it is just a natural outgrowth of past independent learning.












Yes, it’s a mass hallucination we’re waking from, but I think that participating fully in your reality, with authenticity and self-knowledge and self-love, breaks the dream apart, bit by bit. In the meantime, what if everyone let each other have their process? Aren’t they each highly individual, after all?






















The question is how do we then get along with each other, during these strange times, and can we let each find their way, their way?









And what if their way in full of grave deceits, dark intentions, malevolence, contempt, violence, paranoia? What then?















I actually heard a newscaster say out loud the other day what I’ve been chastising this whole time, that we are, as a country, ARE ASKING OURSELVES: who are we as a people, and is this really how we want to behave toward each other?!



















Deeply Awake is all about understanding, applying and going through this process of self examination, one of many aware of the mass consciousness. So, it just stands as a little helper, for those on their way.









The arguing going on for us in TV programming, the conflict we are being fed, the fear, this is the hallucination, that we are not family, and we are not to be trusted, because any one of us could go haywire, like we see on TV. Death is imminent and unpredictable.












All of that terror stuff, it’s the You’re weak, I’m strong, I am in power, You will do as I tell you” stuff that is being exposed.















And does that sound reminiscent of abusive relationships, abusive bosses, abusive situations, sadism, meanness, or unthinkingness? I think it does.














It is the patriarchy itself, dying.














It is the realized end of the Kali yuga.











It is the birth of a new consciousness. One rooted in integrity, honesty, transparency, goodwill, fair play, and an intolerance for cruelty, abuse of power, taking of others’ free will.








That is where we are going, and we are doing it individually and en masse, each in our own way.






We are making a choice between continuing like this, or choosing more cooperative solutions, stop intending to  hurt each other,  stop disregarding each others’ needs, stop blaming, stop shaming, stop tantrums, basically, stop acting like children, in our homes, in our workplaces, in our beds, in our merchants, and in our governing bodies.









It is time.









As it was written in that passage used so often, as two are made one in the Christian tradition, very often, indeed… The mystical, hopefully consensual meld of male and female is often accompanied by these words









(Bet you didn’t expect this! But funny, it pulls the place together, just like that rug, man.)













1 Corinthians 13King James Version (KJV)

13 Though I speak with the tongues of men and of angels, and have not charity, I am become as sounding brass, or a tinkling cymbal.

And though I have the gift of prophecy, and understand all mysteries, and all knowledge; and though I have all faith, so that I could remove mountains, and have not charity, I am nothing.

And though I bestow all my goods to feed the poor, and though I give my body to be burned, and have not charity, it profiteth me nothing.

Charity suffereth long, and is kind; charity envieth not; charity vaunteth not itself, is not puffed up,

Doth not behave itself unseemly, seeketh not her own, is not easily provoked, thinketh no evil;

Rejoiceth not in iniquity, but rejoiceth in the truth;

Beareth all things, believeth all things, hopeth all things, endureth all things.

Charity never faileth: but whether there be prophecies, they shall fail; whether there be tongues, they shall cease; whether there be knowledge, it shall vanish away.

For we know in part, and we prophesy in part.

10 But when that which is perfect is come, then that which is in part shall be done away.

11 When I was a child, I spake as a child, I understood as a child, I thought as a child: but when I became a man, I put away childish things.

12 For now we see through a glass, darkly; but then face to face: now I know in part; but then shall I know even as also I am known.

13 And now abideth faith, hope, charity, these three; but the greatest of these is charity.














It is the empowerment of common sense, in a way, but a powerful, aligned and balanced way of being.















And this will spread.









How can it not, in times such as these?








The seeds we so devotedly planted are sprouting. It’s time to celebrate what we have accomplished, those who have been like me, many for far longer. We are, indeed everywhere, and everyone. ❤













I watch because I find that if I miss one day of active viewing and thinking, I miss too much. It’s quite complicated, but it’s coming into clearer focus, what’s at hand.
The winds are shifting as I write this…  Can you feel it?


















So, that’s what I do about it, I blog,  finding I can’t help to blend my take on reality, a decidedly vocal one focused on many things, not just pointing out our president is a douche and we’ve been pimped,  please for the love of god wake the fuck up…















There’s other subjects deep in lalala,  but all of it is embedded in the fundamental core of what’s really going on here.














What I represent, what my friends represent, fully accept and work with, as I do: the very evolution of humanity’s consciousness. Embodiment of full DNA activation. Full access. and Complete peace with it all.














WE ARE EVERYWHERE. WE ARE AWAKE. WE ARE HERE. There are enough of us around the world, now.










We just have to keep that in mind in our daily dealings. That’s all!













But for me, this means following current events. They’re a metaphor for this shift, and each are individually, and they are collectively,  indicative of what individuals are dealing with, many of them. Shadow work is upon so many, now, and we see this being lived out, on the geo-political stage.















Sometimes I think this broader interest of mine is something I need to apologize to ones who are very clear that the ways of the world must be abandoned.













I myself have said repeatedly that our very reality is actually shifting. It’s more and more impossible, and uncomfortable, to consider this continue, and sometimes to even look into, or hang with,  I’m sensing in the bigger “us.”















I really feel that something big…  It’s on us.














And it’s really cool.
















The question is whether it’s detrimental to carry on focusing like this. I think there are a couple of tangles still afoot,  more bumbling attempts to stop a truly magnificent cascade of indictments. It’s getting closer. The mood of the country is shifting.









There’s a crack now.














So, you could call me a hobbyist, or a futurist, or a writer. I think it’s OK to watch. It’s OK to take good counsel, too.








The Maddow shows are wiped by the next day on YouTube. Others are more consistently available for later viewing. It’s sort of a real-time gig, if done well.










I’m writing this, actually, because Sam didn’t really like my focus, nor did I, once I saw it. It’s not the news’ “fault,” though. It’s forgetting the bigger picture as I observe. It’s being emotionally reactive.














Slowing down and remembering the truth is the cure.














The core is always the cure. 😉














And, hell, if I can make that shift and hold it, when I’m watching the news (which is the only way I watch the news, with my big soul, not littlemind), then I can do it anywhere, anytime.


















He did, however, ask that I keep my political viewing to once a week…  To do like him…  “I hate watch YouTube once a week…  Police violence, all the stuff that makes you hate. I do it once a week, the rest of the time is for other stuff.”















I remember now, pre-new-cycle times, and how I was a junkie for stand up, and wanted to try it. Pulling energetic focus from current events does hep. The question remains, how much is too much?












I really liked that, and I  wanted to pass his ideas about “hate watching YouTube” once a week, on to anyone who could benefit from shrinking down watching the stuff sort of designed to make you feel, well,  maybe empowered for having the information, but that makes you, in the end, well, you just feel bad, or gross, or violated, or weirded out..














Those are agreement fields, and they have their own set of feelings. It feels different, a horror movie, and a comedy. Nothing wrong with any of them. They all feel different, have different rules of conduct, different expectations.















Different sensory and emotional experiences.  Something to think about, when taking long dips in a way of thinking, specific vocabulary, clear rules, like politics, or other things. Each pursuit has its own set of tools and language, after all.

















If it’s something you try on, but then continue,it may change you, influence your other pursuits, right?  And if viewing continues, maybe you don’t notice a change for the worse, but those around you do.














It’s wise to take a look at a trustworthy (underscored!) travel companion’s notes on your behavior, whether devoid or dripping condemnation. Preferably without judgment, though.














It’s funny, though, how those who drip, in the end, can be softened, over time, with softness. somehow, usually.















But sometimes it happens in such as these.
















That super bad feeling, of not really being able to effect or change or do anything about  the injustices and hostility, it’s this that is going to start changing, more and more, as it becomes glaringly obvious this total turd never should have been entrusted with such a role, that it was a mistake,  we have buyers remorse…














And oh so many lawmakers, judges, police officers, are at risk.














They’ll go down kicking and screaming and pointing guns at us, screaming at us to join their fray.  














My oh my.  












Time’s up, boys.














Or, nearly.





















The dark dies hard, remember.















Let Mueller keep being protected, keep the CI on it, and in the end, we’ll realize,  in this process,  that we shut down the highest level mafia there every was. Intercontinental. And deeply embedded in our banks and big businesses.



















But one thing at a time…
















It’s on it’s way.


















I can feel all that coming too.



















Fear not, and be of good cheer.






















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