The best work I have done thus far. I am honored to bring this to you tonight.
A very honest discussion about changes I experienced, during this process, and thoughts about ascension at this time, given the energy now available to us at this time.
It’s loaded with visual/energetic anomaly, and is stated in such a beautiful, complex, accessible and symmetrical way, I feel just as I used to after having done a channel, at the keyboard, sweating it as I hit the “Send” key. It had to be done, my determination and unwillingness to disregard the urge told me that, and then I’d felt exhilaration and relief from having having done it, this super risky and “out there” thing.
I’d cringe, sometimes for days, never a lot but I would feel tremors sometimes, with my own work, but never with the channeling. I figured it this way: my own sister told me that what I channel is NOT me, it just CAN’T be. I was flooded with relief for her words. Oh my god, it’s real, it’s real, someone else who really knows me sees this is real! But even with that confirmation, sending things out would make me nervous, but the channeling sang, always sang and spread. I figured, in the end, it’s just too stunningly beautiful to be all mine, from me alone. I mean, come on….
I didn’t question the validity of the channelings, because they read and felt like they were coming from someplace sacred and ancient and true immediate, from someplace bigger, and it’s so perfect and strong and true, I know it’s going to be able to shine far and bright, regardless, regardless… It might be from me, but it’s too exquisite to be seen as mine.
I was able to get courage to publish, thinking those thoughts, at the beginning, and on a night like tonight, I find myself thinking that way in celebration and exaltation, for this conscious, non-channeled work. It’s a funny thing, this feeling, but I like it, and I want more of it. I am on my way. And you are on yours!